love time when the old maid smelted like this

love time when the old maid smelted like this

In that year winter of 19 years old, began the tour of my emotion. His name is space, one is tall and big, the steady boy who held back inside. The good word all alone written, six years older than I, he just worked at that time, and I was practising. Now, keep given by him in the memory depths
The letter which I wrote, often apply to our door of the dormitory. A lot of night when it have, we each round dormitory area all over press by road, but this section of pure emotions only last more than one month, because the family thinks that working can not fall in love and add, I thought, the thing all one's life, this is too dull, my life did not just begin, know the better one
Two years later, I went to work, submitted to the evening university, the wave and a unit of mine, are studying in the evening university, gradually, know. His schooling is not high, graduating from junior middle school carries his father's class, but his appearance knew the own business very much, when he knows me, have already gone to work in the past ten years. He can display oneself very well, but only at the beginning of associating too, slowly, I find, he is short-tempered, outwardly strong but inwardly weak, a lot of inherent ability to control oneself and style of conversation are what he can't possess forever, in addition, family either very satisfied, intermittent the intersection of contacts and seven 8 months, departure.
Once, I and my good friend goes to look for her boyfriend, see him ---Attain. He and the intersection of I and the intersection of boyfriend and the same bedroom of girl friend, but he send, reach Beijing go, engaged in first event the intersection of we and unit. Went nearly two years ago, this just went back. This boy is thin and weak, thin, but a pair of eyes are very deep and bright, we can be regarded as and fall in love at first sight, he pieces of very getting implicit people, very kind to me. Comparing upper emotion difficult and sulky in quarrel, I felt one kind was smooth, steady and sure. He has a lot of advantages: Calm and steady, diligent, sincere to people, the person who may study science is in the main so, he attracts me not only come from his prestigious university, but he quality make wind on one's body, contacts of us like one brook, very much limpid, not vulgar. He always encourages me, supports my study.
One day half years later, I lead him to see my parents and family, while chatting, he has heart disease to talk about him to my elder brother, this is like a bomb, the family strangles him firmly, under family's firm opposition, we have said good-bye, but everybody bows and disappears and resumes to see in a unit, the I one life like falling if ice by cave,after a while, he be for the South to be job-hopped.
After this blow, I feel quiet completely.
The family has introduced a teacher to me, teach chemistry in the key high school of a province, the first meeting, he says, a girl of our class of elephant very much that you are long Having passed for several days, while seeing the film in a cinema, he suddenly said again, you were long really very like that girl of our class I scarcely know what one has said. Do not add it twice, fresh with a girl to me, I am repugnant completely.
The colleague lets me know a boy again ----Auspicious, although too graduate from university, not so elegant as the one that attained, the makings. In month of three or four of awkward place, he said he would feel I am not very absorbed, just have a chance, job-hop too, later, although also phone, has had nothing to say gradually too
Later, later, I had never smelt the smell of the love, at a lot of nights, I often dream and attain.
In spring of 2002, a good friend of mine wanted to be on business to the South, I had no one that returned to taking care of to follow to die a martyr, I want to look for attaining, no matter in the front is the wind and frost sleet, I will not shrink back.
In Shenzhen, I have seen him, he watches the sea with me, go to beautiful China, he says to me, if I go to the hospital to check, everything is out of question, he marries me. Very funny, yes. (Because we did not always cross a river in ancient China in the past together, although there are several he wanted to enter by force, but did not succeed, so he, on suspecting I was problematic, can't enter at all) ,I wonder whether he is a bookworm, or should punish I, an excuse.
I go to the hospital to check, the doctor says everything is normal, but we are unable to get back to the past, since then, I see, there are a lot of things, a losing is forever.
The family begins to urge me, I am 27 years old, continue blindlying date.
Others have told me an engine driver, the first meeting, he asks, you have good condition, why be yet till now
I could put, said one sentence: Pick and choose.
Has seen a policeman, pogdy, this person is very talkative, I did not insert a few words from the beginning to the end. Have finished to the others' sponsor and asked me: How, do I say, how did he say? That girl says: He say the intersection of you and like dose, musical instrumenting of Sri Lankan, tying tight on day long. Oh, seem the officer like the rock star, ensuing chapters no after all.
Another the intersection of Tianjin and university, wear packs of glasses, how speak, meet for the second time, in the intersection of he and dormitory, I sit on bed opposite to the he, foot of me stretch, I wonder, play, pour under the bed anything, he says, you knock my shoes over! I squat and support at once. For being tense, I have pulled open the drawer on hand conveniently, only listen to him saying: Don't turn over my things!
Later, he came to look for me again, his younger sister from countryside did not work as a temporary labourer the child live in, then, his sister lives to this of mine, but I end up in nothing definite with his thing
Men in the same designing institute met that day, it is said the other side 32, the orchid which he tilted meant really calling me regurgitation opposite to the dining table, then he says, we shouldn't come here to have a meal, I ask: " ? " He says, you should go to my family, see my house, moreover, I want to see how the level that you cook is
There is an office of our area under one's jurisdiction, one year older than I, associate for one month, having sent corn stick three times to me, say that is sent here by their old family, can not eat up.
Having said good-bye later, he came again, said, I returned to me for nine chains of rings which you played that time
I say, sorry, I can not open, get the unit and let the colleague help, return to you another day.
Having passed for several days, he came again, call me under the window: I will not go up, please throw away

The people around all say, will become old maids soon, why not get married, choose very much.
Well, my heart has already lost, has not known in the dusk where to float towards.
This is not a dream, not a novel, but the vivid emergence on me.


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